So...marching band field show yesterday. I had fun. I think. I can't really understand my current boggled feelings. I'm all disoriented from being awake for more than 12 hours straight yesterday.
I can say I'm...angry, blank, okay, content, depressed, and frustrated all at the same time, I suppose.
Let's see if Kevyn's character meme will help me to feel any better.
101 Questions You Should Be Able to Answer About Your Character
(Must be in OCs POV)
Character: Kevyn
BASICS
1. What is your full name? Do you have a nickname?
-- I think my full legal name is something like 'Kevyn Amana Sailon'. I haven't used it in forever. Anyway, people usually call me Kevyn. People who really hate me call me The Silver Vixen. I kinda like it. >D
2. How old are you? When is your birthday?
-- 18 and my birthday's July 13th.
3. Where were you born? Where do you live now? Are you patriotic?
-- I was born in the Eldin Province, specifically Kakariko Village. Because of what I do, I don't really stay in one place for long anymore; 'bout a week max when I'm taking a break in Castle Town. And though I'm a thief, I do love Hyrule.
4. Who are/were your parents? (Names, occupations, personalities, etc.)
-- Mum and Dad, Mara and Derek Sailon, were (in my thinning childhood memories) great. Mum was apparently some sort of descendant of the ancient Gerudo tribes, but she did honest work as a mother and housewife. ...Well, she did show me and my sister the ropes to all this thieving stuff. Dad was a pretty high-ranked official in the Royal Guard. People really respected him and all. It was kinda weird to have conflicting ideas from both parents, but they were great all the same...
5. Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like?
-- Yeah, my sister, Jessie Rayna Sailon. We're not to far apart in terms of age; she's 16. She's my only blood family left as far as I know, and though she's younger than me, she's definitely more cautious than me. She does have her more feisty moments, and people say she's a little more greedy for treasures than I am. I wonder about that.
6. What is your occupation?
-- Publicly, I'm a thief. Personally, I'm an archaeologist.
7. How tall are you? How much do you weigh?
-- Let's see...5'4" and 117 pounds.
8. What color is your hair? What color are your eyes?
-- Silver hair and amber eyes. Yeah, I look like a weirdo 'cause of the particular light mage's spirit I made a pact with.
9. What is your race?
-- Strongly Hylian.
10. To which social class do you belong?
-- Eh, thanks to my public reputation, I'm in the lower class.
11. Do you consider yourself to be attractive? Do others?
-- Attractive? Maybe to Reeon, I am, but I never thought of myself as attractive.
12. What is your style of dress?
-- Athletic and flowy. I'm a thief with style!
13. Do you have any scars? Tattoos? Birthmarks? Other unique physical features?
-- No scars, yes tattoos on my right arm, no birthmarks, and really nothing else.
14. Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?
-- No allergies, no diseases, and no other physical weaknesses as far as I know.
15. Are you right- or left-handed?
-- I'm a righty!
16. What does your voice sound like?
-- I'd say it's a little deep for a girl's voice, but I can say I don't have the smooth flowy voice of say, Princess Zelda or Ilia. Since I'm a little on the ill-bred side, my way of talking isn't pretty. I dunno...the voice I hear myself is different from the voice others hear.
17. What kind of vocabulary do you use?
-- People say I sound educated enough, but I really don't have the proper language of the higher ups. I really don't.
18. List three quirks or other defining characteristics.
-- I'm pretty darn athletic! Haha.
-- I'm really scared of dead things and ghosts.
-- I'm a light mage, though people like to label me "sage".
19. How often do you bathe? Do you wear perfumes?
-- I don't often have the chance to bathe, but I do whenever there's a body of water nearby or when I'm in any town or village. Perfumes are for higher-ups and they reveal me too easily, so I can't afford to wear them.
20. What kind of facial expression do you commonly wear (dour glare, wry smile, etc)?
-- People say I often have a really curious and inquisitive look if not a "toying smirk".
21. Do you use body language? How?
-- I think the most expressive body language I have is taking off running as fast as possible.
22. Do you have a commonly used saying?
-- Sorry, no.
CHILDHOOD
23. What is your earliest memory?
-- My earliest memory? Mmm...I think that was when I was 4. I stole the pie off our neighbors' window pane. It was a really good apple cinnamon pie.
24. How much schooling have you had? Did you enjoy it?
-- I was sent to school by Dad. A girls' boarding school in Castle Town, at that. I had some decent schooling there until I was seven when I got kicked out for stealing everyone's underwear and throwing them in the schoolyard because I was so mad at everyone. After that, I went back home, things happened, and I the rest of my schooling from Renado.
25. Where did you learn most of your knowledge and skill?
-- Well, I got the knowledge of my magical potential and the skills of my prestigious thievery from Mum. Dad taught me most of my life lessons and all that. Social skills and combat and etcetera.
26. How would you describe your childhood in general?
-- I guess it was okay...It wasn't great, but it didn't entirely suck at the same time. If Mum and Dad hadn't been killed, then it would have been better, but...a person can't have perfect.
27. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
-- Actually, I didn't have anything in mind back then...
28. When and with whom was your first kiss?
-- I was fifteen. Reeon had just come down from Snowpeak, and well...I was pretty darn intimate with him.
29. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?
-- Nope, not a virgin at all. I gave it to Reeon when I was sixteen. We were in his room at the time and...yeah...I gotta admit it was pretty nice.
30. Do you have a notorious or celebrated ancestor? Does that affect you?
-- I guess my spiritual ancestor counts. Azariah is the light mage spirit that I made a pact with in order to receive my magic. She apparently sealed away some hell-born spirit way way WAY in the ancient past. Unfortunately, making the pact with her changed my appearance completely, and I'm not happy with it.
INFLUENCES
31. What do you consider the most important event of your life so far?
-- I would say the events happening in
Light's Blood right now are those most important events.
32. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
-- I don't know, I don't really have any "greatest achievements" that I can think of.
33. What is your greatest regret?
-- Breaking up with Reeon. No one's ever supported me like he did, and I pretty much tossed him aside. I haven't forgiven him for what he did, but I feel pretty half-empty without him.
34. What is the most embarrassing or shameful thing ever to happen to you?
-- Well, first you have to realize just how popular Reeon is in Castle Town. Then I have my sister who decides to overreact to my night with Reeon. Think about it. Sister screams in the middle of the Castle Town thoroughfare: "YOU HAD SEX WITH HIM?!"
35. Do you have any secrets? If so, what are they?
-- Secrets? Um...Not really.
36. What is the most evil thing you have ever done?
-- Most evil thing? Well, I say that depends on what you call "evil".
37. When was the time you were the most frightened?
-- Oh, many, many times. Haha. There is no "most frightened" with me. I turn around a corner and I'm apprehensive as to what I'm going to run into.
38. Have you ever traveled outside of your country?
-- Not outside Hyrule, if that's what you mean. I've definitely gone through a lot of the provinces, but I haven't gone outside Hyrule.
BELIEFS
39. What is your alignment?
-- What alignment?
40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?
-- The glass is half-full. ^^
41. Do you believe in a god? If so, which one and why?
-- In Hyrule, the term is "goddesses". Din, Farore, and Nayru. Then under them are the Spirits of Hyrule and the Ancient Sages. We believe the elements, which the three goddesses established, control the cycles of life.
42. Do you believe in an afterlife?
-- No, not really.
43. What is your greatest fear?
-- Dead things and ghosts. And also being alone.
44. What makes you angry? Sad? Happy? Why?
-- I get angry with disrespectful natures. I'm not one to be saying so, but disrespect really gets to me.
-- While I
am a treasure hunter, I like heartfelt words more than treasure. They make me happier.
-- Lies and liars depress me more than anything, because it's something I do all the time. I hate seeing myself in others.
45. Do you think people are basically good or basically evil?
-- I'd say people are neutral, really. Kinda hard to say where that neutrality is between good and evil.
46. What are your views on politics?
-- Pffft. Politics.
47. What are your views on gambling, lying, theft, and killing?
-- Gambling: I've enough of it, and I have awesome luck!
-- Lying: -depressed sigh- If only I could stop.
-- Theft: Um...I live off of it.
-- Killing: If you're going to do it, have a good reason. But at least reap the consequences for it.
48. How far will you go to defend your beliefs?
-- Not far. People don't really care anyway.
49. How much do you value money?
-- Very, very, very, very much. 83
50. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do?
-- Lie.
51. Do you believe in self-sacrifice for the greater good?
-- I'd do it if I had enough lives.
52. Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love?
-- I do. It's just...finding, realizing, and keeping that soulmate is incredibly difficult. That's how I lost Reeon.
53. Are you superstitious?
-- I guess you can say that.
54. How much do you respect the beliefs and opinions of others?
-- To each their own. Though I can't resist a comment sometimes.
55. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings?
-- I'm not honest at all. Seriously.
56. Do you have any biases or prejudices?
-- I'm sure I do somewhere in the distant reaches of my heart and mind.
DEALING WITH OTHERS
57. Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
-- I'd say my sister Jessie is, just because she's always been there for me throughout my whole life. If I ever need to confide in anyone, Jessie is the person I turn to.
58. Who is the person you respect the most? Despise the most? Why?
-- In all truth and honesty, I respect Princess Zelda the most, just because of where she is as a woman. The fact she can strive to push and guide her kingdom to where it needs to go while still remaining true to herself really earns my respect. And I usually think any person I despise despises me because of something I did. So I truly hate myself the most.
59. Do you have a significant other? Who? Why?
-- While he first fell for me because of my looks, Reeon's loved me unconditionally since the first time he saw me. And really, it's likewise. He's always supported me and he always pushes me past what I consider my limits. He's shown me that I can be more than what I think of myself to be. He and I broke up six months ago, but...
60. Do you have a lot of friends? Who is your best friend?
-- No, I don't have a lot of friends, but the people I'm friends with are my closest. I like to think Link's one of my best.
61. How do you relate to members of the same race? Class? Sex?
-- Well, with other Hylians, I tend to be slightly alienated just because I'm a mage. Mages are kinda...non-existant in these days. I don't generally mix in with the rest of society because I kind of dislike society, haha. And according to Jessie, other girls envy and idolize my lifestyle.
63. Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
-- I've been in love. Yeah. Reeon and I were together for about a year and half. And the memories of what happened are things I want to keep to myself. Sorry.
64. What do you look for in a potential lover?
-- Depends, I guess.
65. How close are you to your family?
-- Jessie and I are really close; we're blood-related after all. Mum and Dad will live on in our memories forever.
66. Do you want a marriage, family, and/or children?
-- No, I don't really want any of them...
67. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?
-- I usually avoid conflict because I know I'll lose.
68. Are you a listener or a talker?
-- I'm a listener, I'd say.
69. How long does it usually take for you to trust others?
-- To trust others? Not very long.
70. Do you hold grudges?
-- No.
71. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
-- Haha, no, I'm the follower.
72. Do you like interacting with large groups of people?
--

No, I use crowds and large groups of people to blend into them and camouflage myself.
73. How well do you express yourself?
-- Ha, not well at all.
74. How quickly do you judge others?
-- I trust other people easily, so it takes me a while judge them.

75. Do you care what others think of you?
-- A little, but not entirely.
76. Do you have any enemies? How or why are they your enemy?
-- Enemies? Plenty. Why? Because I stole stuff from them.

PERSONAL TASTE AND OPINIONS
77. What is your favorite pastime? Color? Food? Possession?
-- Pastime: Relaxing along the banks of Lake Hylia.
-- Color: Silver.
-- Food: Bread. Pretty much anything that has bread in it.
-- Possession: These amethyst earrings that Reeon got for me.
78. What are your preferences in arts and/or entertainment?
-- I like looking at historic paintings, but I have a higher preference for dancing.
79. Do you smoke, drink, go whoring, or use drugs? Why or why not?
-- Uh...No, because if I did any of that, it would be easy to catch me.
80. How do you spend a typical Saturday night?
-- I'm usually either researching or sleeping in.
81. What is your most cherished fantasy?
-- It's something I think about only when I'm by myself in my own room.
82. How long is your attention span?
-- Not very long, no matter the situation.
83. Do you laugh a lot? What do you find funny?
-- I sure do laugh a lot. Sometimes for no reason and sometimes for good reason, though I can never remember what.
84. Is there anything that shocks or offends you? If so, what?
-- I can't take insults against me. I really can't.
85. How do you deal with stress?
-- I take a long swim in Lake Hylia. Or I sleep.
86. How much athletic ability do you have? Artistic?
-- I have enough athletic ability that I can get away from the Royal Guard pretty darn easily and they can never catch me. I don't have a lot of artistic talent though...I think.
87. Do you like animals? Do you like children?
-- I love animals. ^^ But not children.
88. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?
-- I am a spontaneous person. I just go with it and hope for the best.
89. Do you have a pet? If so, what is his/her name? Species? Fur color? Etc.
-- No, no pets. I don't have the time to really take responsibility for said pet.
SELF-IMAGE
90. What is your greatest strength as a person? Weakness?
-- People say I'm pretty determined once I set my mind to something. But in compensation, I have no confidence in myself, so if something attacks something about me, I falter very easily.
91. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
-- I would change my liar's intuition...
92. Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
-- I tend to be an introvert because I'm afraid of others' opinions.
93. Do you like yourself?
-- Mmm...Not really. But maybe my research will help me to either forget about it or love myself a little more.
94. Do you have a daily routine? How do you feel if your day is interrupted?
-- I don't generally have a daily routine. That way, I'm more flexible just in case things come up.
95. What goal do you most want to accomplish in the next six months? Your lifetime?
-- I want to...reconcile with myself as well as Reeon within the next six months. Within my lifetime...I don't know. I don't really have anything in mind.
96. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years?
-- Within five years, I'll most likely be doing what I'm doing right now. Exploring and gathering information. In 10 years, hopefully my public reputation will die down and I'll be able to start settling down into a new life. Within 20, who knows? I don't know, really.
97. If you could choose, how would you want to die?
-- I'd want to die as a thief: running and knocking people out of the way.
98. What is the one thing you would like to be remembered for after your death?
-- ...I'm not sure if I really want to be remembered by others even after I die, really.
99. What three words would you use to best describe your personality?
-- Cowardly, spontaneous, (yet) relaxed.
100. What three words would others probably use to describe you?
-- Clever, outgoing, athletic.
101. Why are you risking your life to adventure?
-- Life wouldn't be fun otherwise.
I will now go get some rest...
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In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
~Linkin Park, What I've Done
~kbxshadow